its been a long time im not blogging. its getting worse. yes. at this time, i just done my istikharah prayer. why? just a reason. should i leave her or not.
im just asking her questions and she blame me that im emo with her. hey, i just asking you, am i that bad? easily get emotional? am i a crazy dude that always blame you? youre blaming me with things i didnt done. yes, im thinking to end this. 5 month, i was so patient akk this time with your attitude. but now, sorry, im not going to give my commitment to you.
i dont want any relationship afterthis. this was my biggest mistake in my life. im going to take care of my love to her. my first one, but unfortunately, shes gone due to heart attack.we never broke our relationship, and i will never ever fall for someone else again. its been 5 month also shes gone. im miss you, our moment. and my biggest mistake was falling for the present one.
things are very different. yes. it just like the deepest part of the sea and the highest sky. FA never leaves my mind. she always with me wherever i go. i yes, i hope Allah will help me make desicion. i really need your help Allah. please help me.
