hi guys, first post. many things that i want to talk about. but for today, i start my 1st entry with tonight story.
like usual, i text her, which is my girlfriend. yeahh, gf *sigh. its not that i hate her or i not love her. its just, my heart. been broken for many times. yeah, let me start the story. texting like usual, but shes unusual. just plain twxt that i get from her. only me that so trying to be excited texting her. when i got text like, "nothing" , "yeaa" , "okay then" , thats really hurts me. very very.
why? I'll tell you in my next post. just now we talk about movies. the old movies, so i said to her that she can copy it from me, but then, she give me a simple text, i thought that day was the last time we met. at that time, the sharpest knife in this world sliced my heart. its painful. yeap.
hey, i know you're clever, you got dean list for 2 sems, and maybe this sem also. i know you apply for fast track but what is your purpose bragging this to me? i can feel it. i know i'd failed 2 subjects and repeating it but this humiliate me. clever ones always looks down to the unclever right? im not praying but if Allah want to show you, he can took your fast track okay, i know im dumb, even 3 pointer i cant get. keep bragging about that, tell me that you dont want to see me.
when i asked her why? she said nothing. oh yess, nothing is the best answer right? this night was shit. hey, just be honest with me. if you dont love me, just tell me, not bragging like that. i do have emotion like you, dont force yourself to love me. i dont like it. i'll try my best to move on, IF you left me one day. yeah, shah alam have many guys right, there must be a handsome mowhawk haired guy, clever, shaped body that can attract you. but, i know you, i know how guys nowadays, and i know, IF you leave me, its your biggest mistake in your life.
im completely hurt today. thanks.
